Musings on Death Monday, Mar 2 2009 

In addition to my daily one-card Tarot reading, which is blogge here and on Twitter, I also do a weekly reading for the week ahead. It’s a simple, six-card reading that looks at various aspects of life. This week, for the “works” card, I drew Death.

And promptly freaked out.

Now, I know that Death does not mean death. It usually means change, but in this economy, that’s scary enough all on it’s own. Never mind that my outcome card was The Moon, and that my message from the Universe card was the Ten of Cups. Both good cards–well, okay, The Moon can be tricky, but I like to think that she and I are on fairly good terms. Hello, it’s Death.

After I talked myself down, I started to think and meditate on Death, and on change. For someone who makes major decisions based on gut-feeling (I’m switching schools! I’m moving cross-country!) I really don’t like change. I like comfort. I don’t like to move around a lot, or deal with new environments (one of the reasons I don’t have roommates), and I like routine. But what kind of change does Death bring?

It’s not change like The Tower. It’s not that sudden crumbling of the foundations of your life and beliefs. It’s not the Wheel of Fortune, either. The Wheel is change, but it’s that slower, inexorable change that is shaped by your own decisions.

Then it became clear. Death isn’t about the reaper coming for you; it’s about you becoming the reaper. Death is the opportunity to make the changes you need to make in your own life and personality. To put an end to the things that aren’t working. I’ve been thinking a lot about Ostara in the past few days, and planting metaphors have cropped up (ha! cropped!) so I’ m going to further belabor that symbolism and say that death is like weeding. If you have a garden, you have to weed it (or so I hear, I don’t actually have a garden). If you don’t, the weeds take over and choke out the flowers.

Death is like that. What  do I need to cut out before it chokes me off? Insecurity? Fear? Doubt? Deeply ingrained desires to fade into the background? That’s what Death is asking–what am I going to reap?

Tarot Card of the Day: Ace of Pentacles

Reports of my death have been greatly exaggerated Wednesday, Jan 14 2009 

No, I have not disappeared from the blogosphere, I’ve just been very busy! Mary (aka, she-who-never-updates-her-blog) visited for the last few days of my vacation, and we were busy frolicking through San Francisco and Oakland, knitting, eating and napping in public. (It’s fun, you should try it!) Then, I headed back to work just in time to get hit by food poisoning, and have been super busy ever since.

Not much news on knitting; I finished the Filligree Scarf, and promise pictures once I look less like death warmed over…I’ve also been slogging along on Snow White and (im)patiently waiting for my first order of Socks That Rock! I’m still hoping to be able to finish a pair of socks by the 31st, for my CAYA initation. I’ve been stalking it (and my Amazon order!) on the USPS website and I’m hoping I’ll have it today or tomorrow. I’ve also been playing around with swatching my design for Chief Tyrol’s Stealth Socks, but there’s no way I can work on two projects at once that are mostly 2×2 rib without going absolutely bonkers, so that’s on hold at least until Snow White is done.

Not much else to say; I have a feeling this is going to be a very interesting  year for me. I can already feel the Hanged Man influence receding (my tarot for the year; it won’t actually end until my birthday later this month) and Death is coming next so I’m sure change is afoot! I’ve already been drawing different cards than normal; The Sun, The High Priestess (I NEVER get those) and lots and lots of twos so I’m guessing balance is something I need to be working on….but I’m really looking forward to it!

Tarot Card of the Day: Ace of Wands

Loud and clear Monday, Sep 29 2008 

I think the Universe is trying to tell me something.

Lately, in my tarot daily practice, I’ve been drawing the Empress card a lot. She’s also been showing up in pretty much all of the readings.

Now, the Empress is not a card I’ve felt particularly drawn to. The Star, the Moon, the Hermit, Justice, sure. The Empress? Not so much. Yet here she is. Over and over and over.

So, I’m guessing hte Universe is trying to tell me something here.

Problem is…I have no idea what.

Tarot Card of the Day: The Empress

Feel the Earth move Saturday, Sep 6 2008 

No, really.

After the week I’ve had, an earthquake is pretty much the only thing that could top it, so of course the universe obliged.

It was a small one–from what I’m seeing, it seems like people in SF felt it more, I almost didn’t notice. Just a slight shaking. Still, earthquakes are never fun.

On the up side, I bought myself a new tarot deck. it’s the Gilded Tarot, and it’s gorgeous. There’s almost a steampunk aesthetic on some of the cards–I love it.

Tarot Card of the Day: Emperor

Contemplating the Star Thursday, Aug 7 2008 

I’m taking the Science of Tarot class at The Sacred Well, and this month is focusing on the Major Arcana. As part of the class, we have to choose one card and prepare an art project representing it.

My card is the Star.

I was waffling between the Star and the Moon–both are cards I feel very drawn to, yet still have difficulty with–and when I asked the class pretty much everyone instantly said “The Star.” Um, okay. I’m not quite sure where they’re all coming from with that, but I can go with it.

The question now is, what do I do? My first impulse is to knit something, but I don’t know if that’s the way to go. The Star is very ethereal to me, and while I could see a lacy, floaty shawl or scarf working well, I can’t see myself finishing one in time. It is a project to stow away for the future, though–designs from the Tarot? Interesting concept!

Beyond that, I’m stuck. My other thought was a video mash-up, which would work well for some cards (Lovers and The Emperor spring immediately to my mind) but again, too solid for the Star. I’ll have to think about this one, but I imagine it will involve glitter in some way. Yay, sparkles!

Tarot Card of the Day: Temperance

Peach Bread Wednesday, Jul 9 2008 

Today was our monthly  breakfast potluck/meeting at work so I made peach bread to bring in. It came out pretty well, but I’m already thinking of ways to alter the recipe. I could have used more peaches, and more peach flavor, so I’m thinking maybe adding 1/2 C oil and 1/2 C peach nectar instead of 1 C oil next time.

I’m also thinking of splitting the vanilla extract in half and subbing in half almond extract, and maybe some coconut flakes. And more peaches–I like my fruit breads bursting with fruit.

Even without those changes, it went over well, and everyone seemed to enjoy it. I should bake more often, especially bread–I love homemade bread, and I have an insane amount of fancy jam and jelly in my cabinet to use up. And what’s better than freshly baked bread with fancy jam?

Alas, I was unable to grab a photo before the bread was devoured by hungry wolves coworkers. I also forgot to draw a Tarot card this morning, as I was in a hurry to get to work earlier than usual, so the Tarot card of the day is taking a little vacation too.

Hey, at least the week is half over, right?

I fringe therefore I am Friday, Jun 13 2008 

I’m still fringe-ing away on the Litha shawl. I need to have it finished by tomorrow, so I can wear it to a Midsummer festival and Worldwide Knit in Public Day!

Because nothing says fun like spotting knitters in the wild, I’ll be hanging out with the Knit One One crowd in Berkeley. If you’re in the area, head over to Sweet Adeline’s Bakery and look for the knitters outside…and don’t forget to stop in and get some of their delicious baked goods.

I love knitting in public like that–people always looked so surprised to see such a large group of knitters congregating in one place. I’ll be bringing my tarot cards too, since one of my homework assignments is to do a reading for someone –I’m hoping that I’ll be able to find a couple of people who are interested.

Knitting in public and free tarot readings! What could be better?

Tarot Card of the Day: Ten of Wands

Now I’m getting worried… Thursday, Jun 5 2008 

Yep–another nigh without knitting! Scary!

I had an excuse this time, at least–I had my tarot class, which I’m very excited about. The only tough part is that the teacher has asked us not to look at our tarot book for the month we’re taking classes–eek! I love books, and while I know this is all about developing my intuition, it’s a little scary. Plus, I just got the Spiral Tarot book that goes with my deck this week, and I haven’t even had a chance to explore it yet.

I’m trying to be good, though, and avoid the books. One of the things we did last night was figure out our life and soul cards–I’m a Lovers/Lovers. That’s pretty interesting to me, since I’m probably one of the most solitary people I know. I realize it’s a card that’s also about decisions, and other things, but I’m wondering if it’s also about getting to a place where I love myself enough to be loved by others, or being open to that love.

My year card for 2008 is the Hanged Man, which is also a tough one for me. It’s all about letting go and trusting the universe and trusting myself. Something I’m not so much good at.

Anyway, with the class last night, I had just enough time to stop at a restaurant and grab some (sadly overpriced) Italian food for dinner before heading to the class. I didn’t get home until after 10, so no time for knitting.

Tonight, though. Tonight I will knit.

Tarot Card of the Day: The Sun


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